My thoughts on June 21, 2010 from my former Xanga account :
"(I) want to get married but before that I need to have my own car, a house and financial stability, a child would be a bonus. All of this must happen within 4 years. I need to get movin' quick! I was planning for all this when I'm 30, but it seems to be too long. Time pass so freakin' fast. I'm getting lazier by the day, need to pump up li'l by li'l from now on. Phew."
I overthink sometimes and I think a lot for myself, how selfish of me --- when I should also be thinking about her:

Phoebe, my half sister

She's growing up fast and she has her own needs. As the eldest sibling, I have to set an example for her, cater to her needs and make this world a better place for her grow up and live in.